A few months ago, you may remember, I went for a run. I really wanted to feel that exertion and sweat. It worked, I felt both. I ran a mile, then walked a bit and ran another mile. I thought, wow maybe I was ready for this sooner and I didn’t realize. I was walking a lot more. For me it did not feel like a hard run.
About 2 weeks ago, I suddenly felt like going for a run or jog. I really wanted to sweat and get my heart rate up. I felt ready and knew if my body wouldn't be able to take that yet, then I would just revert back to walking.
One of the things I missed the most after being paralyzed was playing my flutes.
Even after I gained movement back into my arms, hands and fingers, I still lacked the control of my lips to make a good enough seal on the flute to get enough air in through it.
It's been a year since Guillain-Barré Syndrome came into my life. What a journey it has been. I have had more personal growth in one year than ever. I would say at least 10-years worth of growth in one year.
I often talk about being in nature. I do this because for too many years of my life I hustled so hard. I missed the many beautiful things around me. Now, I love taking time to admire it, be with it, and notice how it makes me feel. At peace.
I learned what I liked and didn’t like about my parents' choices. This has given me insight into my choices. I also found myself making unconscious choices replicating things I did not want. I’m grateful to all the coaches, practitioners and healers that have helped/continue to help me overcome these. Each generation has a choice about what no longer serves their family and can let go of it for the good of future generations. This takes outside help most of the time.
Attending Shakespeare in the park with my family overlaps a lot of things for me. Time to relax in a park, time to view folks performing their interpretation of Shakespeare’s script, time with my family, getting some son , talking with others about the story content and reflecting on my own life.